The sadness that caused by the recent events...
Gave Hocaefendi very hard times.
I heard that sons have talked to him this morning.
His tension got high this morning again.
He had some little illnesses.
Probably because of stress.
May Allah give the ones who sadden him the sense of mercy.
We don't say anything bad, May Allah give them the sense of mercy
What can we say...
If we say anything bad,
There will be no effect to them but just our sins will increase.
If we say good things and they become better somehow, at least our sins may decrease.
We wish our prayers to help them to open their eyes.
And we cannot say anything more.
We don't acknowledge hate and anger which are the compounds of unbelief and rebellion!
We removed them from our dictionaries!
We don't want to look at it and see it!
We hate hatred and...
...we condemn hostility!
We say nothing but love and loving!
And in such atmosphere and happiness,
...WE WANT TO BUILD A NEW WORLD!
This world will not be built with firing guns and exploding bombs!
We will build this world with raising our humility!
With focusing on development of our manners!
With giving ourselves the opportunity of exploring deeply about our inner spirituality and to conquer our hearts!
We entered this way of cause by saying "Love"!
We couldn't have entered there with any other way, indeed!
Because Our Beloved Prophet Muhammad (pbuh)entered this way of cause by saying "Love"!
Speaking of visiting Hocaefendi,
I went to USA. My son who lives there took me from the airport.
It was Ramadan time. We went to my son's house, it was afternoon.
We were going to have iftar there. But only think I could think was to go and see Hocaefendi.
We had our dinner and went to Hocaefendi's place.
Entered the place that Hocaefendi is staying.
Isha time.
Hocaefendi was walking along the corridor to get to the saloon for isha prayer.
Right at the moment that he stepped out from his place, I stepped in from the outside gate.
He stopped for a moment like this,
And said: " Waah, Sir Sibgat..." I ran to him directly.
He had never hugged me like that.
How he hugged me... strong with his two hands.
I had to seize the opportunity, I also hugged him strong.
We consoled our longing that way.
For 40 or 50 years, I have been visiting him but, it's the first time he hugged me such.
But this time, it'd been 4 years since we've last seen each other.
During that time, we talked on camera several times but,
But we did not meet for real during that time.
We couldn't go to each other for 4 years.
Thanks to My God.
He hugged me tight. I thought "Okay, My Ustad embraced me like this, now nothing happens to me anymore inshaallah."
This time, it was like that, when we first saw each other.
And once, while leaving...
He cried. When I was leaving there that time.
He went out of the place he lives.
Went further then the parking lot.
By walk,
To do a farewell to me.
Every time I was leaving there, he definitely would accompany me there outside.
This time, at his place, I just kissed his hands and asked for excuse to leave.
Because I was going to leave the next day.
I told that I will visit the children and the grandchildren there. He said "Okay. You may leave after visiting them."
The first meeting was very close, but this time he had his farewell just inside the building.
Didn't go out this time.
Just in the building, he said farewell, take care.
Then I kissed his hand.
Of course he doesn't give his hand. I have never seen him giving his hand.
Once, I begged, cried, he said "Don't play with me, I won't give my hand."
Allah,
May Allah give him health and long life.
Once I said this he said, "Only if it is good for me if not, may He not give."
I had said to his face:
"We always pray for you, for Him to give you long, long life and health.
But he said, "Only if it is good for me."
If not, may He not give.
Inshallah I wish he has a long life and health.
May He give him comfort and peace.
When this events arised,
The people who talked against Hocaefendi made me cry.
I actually cried for them.
How can such a thing happen?
We didn't expect anything like this
Beleive me, still, I feel sad for them..
I don't feel sad for Hocaefendi.
Hocaefendi had already said 50-60 ago, "I am the traveler of this path,...
...I am ready to face everything."
Whatever they say, they don't affect Hocaefendi even a bit.
Of course it makes him sad somehow but not for himself.
For example, there are times that he had been wanted all over the country, and the times that he spent time in jail.
I assure you, even in those times, he didn't feel this much sorrow for himself.
When he was in custody,
I had brought a coat for him, he didn't accept.
He said that "I can get along with my coat."
That time he didn't feel sad.
But now, if he is sad, it is for the people around him.
Thinking that "What if people around me will get hurt?"
I don't mean the people from his family.
The ones who are so connected to him with love and loyalty,...
...And who has sacrificed everything they have in the way that Hocaefendi showed them, for the sake of Allah.
I am sure about that he is not sad for himself and not sad for his family as well.
Because - thank God and all praise be to God - up until now,...
...Thousands times thanks and praises be to my God that...
...Any of our children,...
...Anyone among Hocaefendi's siblings,...
...And any close relative of us never ever had an act which might have caused Hocaefendi's face to get blushed and him to be ashamed.
Thousand thanks to my Allah-
We even haven't been to a police station for giving statement.
Speaking of Politics, we haven't even tend to have the governorship of a district, nor a building manager-ship.
We didn't think of those
Because those things have responsibilities. We might not be able to handle it.
We even didn't tend to a nominating for a village chief candidacy.
Because they will say that we are politicians, etc.
Among the politicians from the time of old government, and current government
I took offers for some positions for Erzurum.
They offered me the position of municipal board. If I had asked maybe they would have let me be a congressman, either.
We will give your name for the candidate of Position of municipal board.
They said that "Be a candidate for that place. In that place you will win the election.
I swear to God, I rejected them.
I said to them "No, we can't have such a thing. Our Ustad said, "I seek refuge God from the politics."
Told them that we can't involve the politics.
I rejected.
It doesn't matter what people say nowadays.
If I do such a thing without Hocaefendi's knowledge, Hocaefendi would reject me in the first place.
Why?
Before, one of our close relatives,
Himself requested to be the candidate to be a congressman of a party and they were going to let him run for it.
Hocaefendi called me,
Look, Sir Sibgat, No one of us should involve the politics.
Of course The recent issues make us so sad.
One may think a lot kind of things to say.
I know so many bad words, sayings from our hometown, Erzurum.
But I heard that
Our Hocaefendi told wherever he went, "Do not respond to them with the same way they do to you."
Since it is so, what we do is to keep silence, we don't respond that way.
Whatever they say, they say anyway.
Actually a lot of investigations have been conducted on us.
A lot of things got checked. We were asked, if we have car, house...
In our family,
Two brothers have their own house.
This house has 3 years of land title.
Children had gotten credit from the bank to buy this house. And the old house was bought by the government for 17K $ as required confiscation.
So, actually I don't want to stay in a house like this.
Because this is contrary to Hocaefendi's principles.
But I was obliged to do this because of my this child.
I can't stay in an apartment because this child disturbs the neighbors.
That's why, sons said that there is this house, we can\t find any convenient one.
So, only my brother and I have our own house. Other siblings don't have their own houses.
And other than these two houses, official or non official, we don't have any other property.
There were farm lands inherited from our father, but we donated them to the foundation.
Foundation had its ownership.
Our ancestors had been serving to our country for centuries.
Had stood by our country.
We too are standing by our country.
It doesn't matter if we stand by the government or not.
Government is the one which left us.
We still wish their favour.
I still get sad too much for them because of what words they say.
I wish they hadn't told this kind of unfortunate words.
As our Hocaefendi advises us,
Be patient.
One day,
The sun will come up and wipe out all the darkness
This is all we hope for.
Vesselam. May Allah be pleased with you.
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